Why did i love her ???

Pyar hi chaha tumse...
pyar dunga tumhe...
rahunga tumhare paas hamesha...
na chod ke jaunga tanha tujhe..
kabhi socha nahi itna kyun chahta hoo tumhe...
kyun pyar karta hoon itna zyada..
kyun tere dard mein rota hoon..
kyun teri hasi se khusi milti hai..
kyun man kare tujhe itna pyar dun k tu saari duniya ko bhool jaye...
kyun chahoon k tu har waqt meri bahon mein rahe..
kyun tujhe apni aaghosh mein lena chahoon...
kyun chahoon k tera masoom chehra rahe hamesha meri aankhon ke samne...
tere pyar ne deewana banaya ya pagal...
par jo bhi ho tere pyar ne mujhe patthar se insaan zaroor bana diya....

Age of 24-25...not a nice one...literally...

24-25 is not a nice age for a man.... your ex-gfs are getting married , Your career has just started, Elders treat you as unproven theorems, College guys feel that you are too old to have in there group... You seem to enjoy both cartoon and news. You can no longer eat whatever you wish without putting on weight. You are not invited for weekend cricket matches . Every Aunty you meet asks “Shaadi kab kar rahe ho beta!!” while uncle asks “Career ka kya socha hai beta…”. When the reality is that you are just riding the wave and going with the flow. You have all the confidence in the world but little achievements to show, You already have the first hand experience of life , You know that whatever you have been taught about the world in school has been sheer waste of time. You can be denied a job even after passing the test and you could be given a job if you know someone placed high enough… Politics till now was a dirty word but now you feel it everywhere. You know now love is not that blind and that friendship has its terms and conditions. .You know there is nothing for granted and free lunches are not free. Your overconfidence is now making way for a humble conscience. . You now know it is not exactly what we thought it would be

paulo cealho

completed the book "11 minutes" by paulo cealho..nice to read..got to know a lot of things about the life I wanted to know...

I wish it would happen....

I wanted to tell her that how much I love her...but...
I wanted to tell her that I just dont wanna be frends with her...but...
I wanted to tell her that I wanted her to my time pass for a life time....but...
I wanted to tell her that I wanted to have our home,my children with her...but...
I wanted to tell her that I will crave for u for the whole of my life if she left me...but...
but...
but...
when I asked her,she said " she can't accept me as her life partner....."

Office..office...office...

kabhi to maan karta hai bhaag jaoon...
phir sochta hoon jaunga kahan bhaag ke...
saala bhaag ne ke liye bhi to paisa chahiye hota hai...
bina paison ke bhaaga bhi nahi jaa sakta...
yehi soch ke phir office chala jata hoon

Let me tell u a story

Once upon a time there was boy called Jai.'Once upon a time' is how the children's fantacy stories begin but this is reality and how can I contradict myself..I am such a fool.Whatever..Lets get back to our story..Like al other children he was born and brought up with utmost care of his parents..They never made him feel lost is this demonic world...He was always secure under his parents..Schooling great..He had friends as well as enemies..When he was in 8th standard a gal called T fell in love with him..But he never saw that gal as his girlfriend..H always treated her as his best friend..He used to have a friend called J at that time..Jai considered him to be his best friend..J repeatedly used to say that, " Jai,T loves u a lot ".But Jai never paid any aid to J's words..Jai was in 9th standard when he joined martial arts class in his school with J..Jai stood first in the yellow belt examination..Jai was very happy celebrating this achievement..One day he came to know that one of his schoolmate named R is deeply in love with T and since T loved Jai so he became a threat cum enemy for R.R always used to harass him..but he never felt disturbed because he didn't had any hatred feeling for R.Slowly as time passed R made J his enemy too.Jai didn't knew why were these things happening in his life..In the 10th class Jai fell in love with a gal named A..Jai had changed his complete friend circle..everything between Jai & A was going fantastic..with A he felt complete..In 11th standard he took tutions from a maths teacher at A's house...pyar zabardast chal raha tha..par kehte hai na vagwan se kisi ki khushi dekhi nahi jati..daal diya musibaton ka fanda bechare Jai k gale mein..a guy from his friend circle started playing tricks against him...It was class 5th sep 2004,Teachers day..by god A was looking the most beautiful gal on earth that day..waise A to har waqt Jai ke liye duniya ki most beautiful gal thi..But destiny had some other things hidden for Jai,some bitter ones...12th standard,when after recovering from jaundice Jai went to school and asked A,is she ready to marry him ? A replied,No but wanted to be friends with him...sala filmo mein hota hoga pyar ki kurbani deke dosti ko zinda rakhna,par real life mein bahut lagti hai boss..aisa karna ek ladke ke liye difficult ho sakta hai..mere liye to impossible tha..Jai thought to leave his hometown after higher secondary go for graduation in some other place..socha shaher badal dunga to yaad bhi kam ayegi A..par saali mohabbat badi kutti cheez hai..When he went to college..ladkiyon ko khiloyna samajh ke khelna chahta tha..par saale se ye bhi nahi hua..ho sakta hai school life mein pyar nahi mila par use 3 aise dost mile ke pucho mat..all 4 of them were different..
S--ekdum bawal banda tha
C--khada khada kisi ke bhi pyar mein gir sakta tha
A--har 15 min mein dukaan badal ta tha chai aur cigerette peene k liye..
Jai the fourth guy
During college days Jai saw that everyone around him was going around with a gal inspite of an earlier heart attack..socha main bhi ek ladki patata hoon..pataya ek junior ko..her name was P. The first time he kissed her---aaaaaaa..heavenly feeling..par kismat ne Jai k liye kuch aur hi socha tha..yeh bhi chod ke Jai ke hi ek senior k saath chpak gayi..Then he decided to use gals for his benefit only..engineering hostel mein phone karke patana mano ek subject tha aur aj bhi hai...aur 2nd year mein P k chod jaane ke baad usne ek nahi 3 ladkiyan patai...traveling 200 kms for meeting a newly taken gal assignment was not very difficult for him..he was happy with his success..success ka nasha tab utra jab ek ladki uske hostel tak aa gayi..that day during the midnight hours he came to know that the gal who had came up to his hostel was a married women and that to from his husband..kasam se Jai ke halak se us raat ko ek niwala tak nahi utra tha..by somehow he managed the situation by sending the gal to his husband safely...4th year came along and he completed it without getting a job..b-tech completed without a job...how frustrating days were those for him..after 3 months he managed to get a job in an MNC's off campus recruitment drive..after the final year he joined a java tution...college mein to java ka J tak nahi samajh mein aay tha saale to..before joining the tution he decided that he would never fall for any other gal..but kamini kismat hamesha taang aadati hai...wahan bhi bhej di ek ladki..When he saw her first time his eyes were wide open..bhagwaan ne kya piece banayi hai,maan hi maan sochne laga..but slowly Jai started falling for her..their frendship grew to the ultimate extent..shayad wo ladki bhi use chahti thi..shayad..par confirm kehna mushkil hai kyun ki ladkiyon ke maan ko bgagwaan nahi samajh sakte to Jai to ek tuchh manushya hai..his date of joinning came..but when he was at a distant place 1200kms away from her..and could meet her once in a year..he felt some emptiness inside him without her being by his side..kya yeh pyar hai? samajh nahi aa raha tha saale ko..apne friend S ko bataya to usne do gaali deke use chup kara diya..but it was S who at last told Jai to propose her..so on a weekend during his training days he decided to propose her..he did it after haing a quater of rum(aaye haaye rum ka nasha kya mast hota hai)..after proposing her,she told Jai that he has already proposed her before..Jai was totally confused..socha abe maine kab propose kar diya..she told that earlier he proposed her in tha same way but it was after having 1/2 bottle rum..tabhi to..adhi bottle rum peene ke baad kya kiya hai kuch pata thode hi rehna chahiye... after that,slowly their relation got disturbed...she started concentrating on her studies and Jai got a job so he had to move up to some other place..distant relations r never expected to be a successful one and Jai's relation with her didn't even started...Jai's life always took an 180 degree turn when he expected something from life....kya zindagi hai...filhaal to Jai apni naukri pe concentrate kar raha hai..aur aage jaane kya hoga rama re..jaane kya hoga maula re..